I am getting back on track, as they say.

I really need a break. Is Thanksgiving here yet??

"I wish life consisted of sitting in a bean bag and eating cookies..."

I don't really wish that, but it is really nice for a short amount of time...a couple hours, maybe.

I miss the beach, and I miss my friends at home.
Steve and Beth and Josh and Erin and the rest of the gang.
:(


P.S. Don't start listening to the Beach Boys unless you want to miss the beach.

Ich bin FAUL!!
Ich brauche zu arbeiten. MEHR.

Auch, Tanglewood, Ihre Website ist nicht sehr gut.

Ende.

So I slept through my alarm today. Woke up an hour later than it was set for. What the heck.

I managed to get to school ten minutes after I woke up, which is quite a feat. I got to conducting a half hour late, so I was marked absent, but it's better than not being there at all, right?..

It's just one of those days...

At least I found an accompanist for the concerto competition. Thanks, Nik!!

There are giants in the sky.

:(

That emoticon is sad and so am I.

I'm only a semi-nole.

Why isn't Astronaut High School's mascot an astronaut?

This World Series disgusts me.

This is the happiest I have felt in the last two weeks, and it was because I had a breakdown today.

It got all of my negativity, all of my stress, and all of my nerves out BEFORE the recital, so when I walked out on stage at night, that was a genuine smile on my face. I was happy to be there, happy to be playing such wonderful, deep music. How blessed we are...

I had a great time at the recital. I really did. It might have been my favorite recital I have ever played, and I think it was probably the best I have ever sounded as well.

Soli Deo Gloria--glory to God alone. If I make music, it is only because God allows me, gives me the tools.

In any case, I hope everyone enjoyed it.

Sorry RUF guys...I'm sleeping in tomorrow.

I can see the light at the end. I'm almost there. Almost...

Dear Life,
I need more stress right now. Can you please deliver some--preferably in the form of a party? I really need something to distract me from my research paper and my recital, and some lost sleep wouldn't hurt either. I also don't think I received enough stress this past week, so some more would be a great improvement.
All my love,
Ashley

Dearest Ashley,
I would love to give you some more stress! You know that stress in the form of parties is one of my favorite deliveries. Tomorrow you will have more stress than you could ever imagine!!
Love,
Life

I'm in a CRAAAAAZY mood. AND I HAVEN'T EVEN HAD ANY SUGAR. And my life is not going any better than it was before
(except for a great rehearsal)

AND IT IS POURING OUTSIDE.

I was one of those days when you wake up and you can just feel that it is going to be yucky all day. YOU JUST KNOW.

maybe I've gone crazy from stress.
there is a banana on my keyboard tray.
BANANAS ARE MONKEY FOOD!!!!

(I love loud piano).
(and lamP)

YAY LIFE

1) I am still healthy.
2) At least I don't have to write my paper on a typrewriter.
3) I've still got my friends.

:)

It'll be over soon. Before I know it.

If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

This is an exact poetic representation of what I've felt like all week (especially today).

A solo recital, a research paper, and four hours of musical every night--one of these three things would usually be enough to really stress someone out...but all three of them together in one week....it's just too much. The Perfect Storm.

I'd like to say that I'm pretty good with stress management. I don't freak out too often. But this week is pushing my limits...
but I can't give up. I was not made a quitter.

Keep going, Ashley. Onward.

Okay...things are looking up. I did a lot of research today and I wrote the introductory paragraph. And I practiced for an hour.

It's okay. It's going to be allright.

Guys, I don't know what I am going to do. I have no time. My jury is today, and my recital is in a week. I have a research paper due on Friday that I haven't even chosen a topic for, and I have Into the Woods for four hours every day this week. In addition to all my other classes and committments.

I trust that everything will work out for the best in the end (it always does), but I am not living in the end, I am living in the present, and in the present I am not getting done what needs to get done.

I just don't know what I am going to do.

Oh man. It's not even funny how much work I have to do. This history paper is plauging me. I mean, I've been working the whole day (on a Saturday!), no social time or wasted time, and I still feel like I didn't get anything done. I don't have time. It's really not funny.

Why am I still at home. Why did I do absolutely nothing for four hours today. Why. Why am I not using question marks.