So...life is hard sometimes. Today was just one of those days. Believe me when I say I took a nap at 8:00 PM and now I'm going to the practice rooms for the first time today. Lord beer me strength.

P.S. Don't get 4 hours of sleep before a graduate presentation or you will find yourself inserting the words "OH DANG!!!" into your speech.

24 is not enough

So...it's 4 in the morning and I'm cataloging every recording of the William Tell overture that exists. Yay grad music classes.

Dad: "They just announced who's playing for the halftime show of the superbowl."
Me: "Who?"
Dad: "Yeah."

Oh dad...he probably thought about how to make that joke for a long time.

This break was everything that a break should be. It's wonderful to have two homes that I love now. I'm not leaving with any regret. You guys don't know how awesome that is. Well, maybe you do.

Goodbye, swamp. Hello, desert. I'm ready to rock. (And by rock, I mean play a lot of classical flute.)

Sunday secrets can wait until I get back...

It's so loud in this house. I'm getting headaches.

Ah, how many nights like this have I had in my life, and how they bring me such joy. Just hangin' with the gang. We really have something truly special here in ol' Titusville. I don't know how many of us know just how special it is. I'll probably always feel at home when I'm here, even if my "home" is somewhere else.

Friendship is underrated. Mostly, I think, because many people have not experienced true friendship and how wonderful it can be. I have.

So my mom got a wii and my family spent a good 3 hours tonight playing wii games.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

I'm home in Titusville. It's kind of strange. It feels like forever since I've been here, but really it's only been a few months. My mom got me a new bedspread and sheets. They smell like a store, and they're on my Tallahassee bed. It's weird, it feels like I'm sleeping in somebody else's bed.

Can't wait to see the gang again. I got like 6 phone calls within 2 hours from my friends today. I was bombarded! I feel so loved here :) And at long last we will meet again!

Do you ever miss the person that you used to be? I do sometimes. We try to stay grounded, we try to retain ourselves, to not get lost in the people we surround ourselves by...but we can't help the change. It's going to happen; it's always happening.

I'll be home for Thanksgiving tomorrow. I can't wait to see all my family and friends! But so much has changed already, with me here in Arizona. These are life-changing months. Not epic-ly life-changing. But enough.

I finally feel pretty normal again. Yay! And I'll be home in two days! DOUBLE YAY!!!

Sigur Ros, you're too beautiful.

Missing finals today, sadface.

Ventured to school today. First time I've been out of the apartment for three whole days. I played flute too. I don't sound as bad as I thought I would, and I'm not getting dizzy or anything crazy like that. Good news.

Recovery is a long process, I only feel marginally better day-to-day. I'll get there eventually. Don't stop believin', right? I'll mostly be looking forward to the day when I'm not coughing up...stuff. TMI, I know.

Finals tomorrow are up in the air for me. Most likely I will not be able to play. Gosh, I miss ultimate.

Pray that my temperature doesn't spike again tonight.

Also, I think I may have become a catalyst for an ASU-FSU flute connection. I'm a little proud of that.

My fever has dissipated! Woo! I'm on the road to recovery and will probably be back at school tomorrow. I'm pretty sure I had the swine flu. Apparently it only lasts a few days, but it really kills you for those days. I don't think I've ever felt so terrible in my life. I was totally incapacitated yesterday. The only way I can describe it is it felt like I was paralyzed, but able to move with lots and lots and lots of effort. Just getting up to go to the bathroom was a arduous feat.

Well, I feel well enough to play tetris now, so...

I slept like 19 hours yesterday.

Still sick, my temperature is rising to above 102 now. uuuuuuughghghghuhguhguhguhguhg

Being terribly sick + having my period + being stressed out because I know I'm missing important things trying to recover = life is dumb sometimes

Pray for my health please, friends.